restart

here all alone
speeding under the city light, empty headed
wind always breeze through my spine but never be this cold
speeding under the unsure night
before the traffic light stop me

once again
try to hyperventilating
send an oxygen through my vein
try to make up my mind
then something pop out my head
are we demented ?
or am i disturbed ?
the space that's in between insane and insecure
oh therapy, can you please fill the void ?
am i retarded ?
or am i just overjoyed ?
nobody's perfect and i stand accused
for lack of a better word and that's my best excuse

is this an edge ?
is this a border ?
is this a limit ?
or just another boundaries to my lack ?
bitter and sweet sensation
overwhelm all over my brains

is it right ?
or is it wrong ?
always have a restart are we ??
thats my riddle ~

baru mulai lagi menulis nih bahasanya masi kacau haha

romeo must die

Let the curtain open
sit tight and i shall tell you some story about faith, love and stupidity

once upon a time
Romeo have a crush with Juliet
to be honest the cupid have a bless upon them
but the world doesn't

why do you want me, oh juliet ?
i have nothing
i just knew something happened
for the very first time with you
my heart melted into the ground
found something true
and everyone's lookin 'round
thinking I'm going crazy

oh i do really want you, my romeo...
i don't care what they say
i just in love with you

but i just a lonesome boy
just a loser
just a wolverine
bleeding to love
just give and no need to ask

oh my romeo ~
to the world you are loser but to me you are the world
we are the world, and they can't beat us so easily
lets makes our world together

but how, how do i make it up to you ??
i willing to do anything for you
to life and not to breathe
to die in tragedy

if it is meant to be romeo
if it is love
if it is our faith
then nothing seperate us but death

well then here take a poison
meet me under the bridge downtown
they will be a witness of our love
but dont you dare starts without me

what a fool
what a reckless
but its my faith
then let it be

so the couple have a promise
but the climax is about to begin ladies and gentlemen

juliet have a another mind to do
she pretend to die and tell romeo later
but what a shame romeo have a deep shock to see juliet die
and a poor romeo take a poison and die
juliet wake up and saw her romeo has passed away
so what can she say ?
she die as well

applause, applause...
no wait, wait !!!
dear studio audience i have announcement to make
what makes romeo so careless to die in tragedy ???
is it faith, love or stupidity ???
what makes juliet so eager have another tought ???
one more time, is it faith, love or stupidity

well i'm just a narrator and this is just a prologue...

menentukan arah

melangkah lah bersama ku agar kau tahu
bahwa kaki itu telah melangkah seiring waktu
seiring datang dan perginya musim gugur
musim gugur dimana kita telah berjanji

mulai lah percepat langkah mu
karena aku mulai resah
karena aku tak lihat jelas kemana tujuan ku
karena aku mulai kehilangan asa

lalu berlarilah dan kejar aku
maaf bukan aku meninggalkanmu
tapi karena aku harus bertahan malam ini
terus melanjutkan nafasku di setiap momen nya

dan berhenti dan hentikan aku
ketika kau lelah dan melihatku terus berlari
atau ketika aku takut tak menentu kemana aku akan pergi
dan peluklah saat aku maka aku akan menangis

karena suatu saat kita akan sering singgah
berpeluh dan melepas resah
karena suatu saat aku akan tertinggal dan kau akan menjauh
berjalan sendiri sendiri, bimbang dan kehilangan arah dan mulai lambat untuk melangkah

berpisah lah, sungguh itu tak apa
ku minta waktu ku dan akan ku beri kau ruang
karena mungkin dikeramaian aku akan mencari sosok mu
dan mungkin di gelapnya malam sosok mu akan tersamar oleh kabut itu

dan maafkan jika hati ini terus mencari pembenaran...
karena jalan ini panjang dan rumit...
ketahuilah karena berapa banyak pun orang yang berubah diluar sana
tujuan ini tetap satu...

caffein effect

talk a walk by the sunset down
the rain heavily pouring down before
but yet rainbow wont showed up
fresh dirt under my shoes
and a fresh atmosphere
sunshine relfect on a wet asphalt
make a golden way lies ahead
try to pace my self while sang a song
the script rhymes tangled in my mind

"sometimes tears say all there is to say
sometimes your first scars wont ever fade away
try to break my heart well its broke
try to hang me high well im choked
wanted rain on me well im soaked
soaked to the skin
its the end where i begin
its the end where i begin"

just made a smile and i'm trying to run
turn on a corner, and found myself standing in front of a coffee shop
a cup of coffee and i will made my day
so i'm tried made a comfort on a couch
one cup and i'm started to enjoy this evening
two hours and i ask for more cup of coffee
three and i just gazed to the corner of the street, a vacant stare
four and it's started to effect

oh caffeine effect,
my heart started to beating fast
adrenaline rushed trough my vein
oh caffeine effect,
my nerve started to anxious
and all the memory poped out in my head

hyperventilating and i tried to get myself awake
anxious so i tried to get my feet back on the ground
restless and i found myself realize
i'm really tired better be going home now

what the hell i'm talking about ???!!!!
what a caffeine effect...

karena terlalu banyak melamun di coffee shop

crossword

dad what are you doing ???
i'm trying to solve a crossword puzzle son
what is crossword puzzle ???
it's a puzzle son. a riddle
see ?? there's so many boxes, up side and down side
it's related each other
then how we solve this puzzle dad ??
answer and fill the boxes one by one
let me try it dad....

it's kind of difficult dad
it is son, it's simulate a life
huh ??? what does it mean dad ???
life just like a puzzle son
you will always ask something
you will figure something
then you will ask more question
just like crossword puzzle
it related each other

then, what else dad ???
you will begin to doubt yourself when you get stuck
is it right ?? is it wrong ???
what i am supposed to do dad ??
move on, answer other question first, easy one
then you'll find a missing link
hmm, but what if i'm wrong ???
can i erase and rewrite my question ??
you can and cannot son
you can erase and rewrite it once in a while
but you can't do it over and over again

you cant tell yourself whether you right or wrong
let people judge
when you do something good, no one will aware
but when you do something bad, everybody will blame you

kind of tricky isn't it dad ??
well that's a puzzle all about
well that's life all about
just believe and follow you're heart
don't hestitate cause you'll never walk alone

hahahaha, cut it out dad you talk too much
am i ?? hahah sorry dear we done too much sometimes
maybe you will understand later
but always remember this conversation in your mind
okey donkey oldman i've got it !!!
i want solve my crossword too !!
some day i will !!!

that's a spirit
oh one more thing....
the puzzle
the riddle
the crossword

it's written already

lagi suka lagu galau

kamu ingin melompat.
ingin sekali melompat.
dari ketinggian di ujung sana.
menuju entah apa namanya.
coba buka lah mata.
indah di bawah sana.
tutup rapat kedua telinga.
dari bisikan entah dimana.

kau terbang dari ketinggian mencari yang paling sunyi.
dan kau melayang mencari mimpi2 yang tak kunjung nyata.

kulihat engkau terkulai
tubuhmu membiru tragis. tragis.
perihmu yang menganga.
tak hentinya bertanya.
hidup tak selamanya linier.
tubuh tak seharusnya tersier.

coba buka lah mata.
indah di bawah sana.
tutup rapat kedua telinga.
dari bisikan entah dimana.

efek rumah kaca - tubuhmu membiru, tragis

god is like a child playing with huge ant hives

kenapa Tuhan tanam buah khuldi ditamanNya ??
apa agar adam bertanya tanya ??
apa agar hawa bisa memaksa adam untuk mengambilnya ??
lalu salah siapa ini ??
apa si merah ambil peran dalam kejadian ini ??
apa adam telah gagal untuk jd role model yang baik bagi manusia lain nya ??
apa Tuhan bermain dengan kita semua ??
siapa yang bertanggung jawab atas ini semua, lalu ??

ah lihatlah kami ~
ini akibat dari kejadian itu
berada dibumi mencoba kembali ke eden
Dia hamparkan labirin untuk kita lalui
jalannya banyak
lurus saja,
berliku,
memutar,
bolak-balik,
off road,
banyaklah tak usah saya sebut karena sungguh saya tak tahu banyak-banyak
tp tujuannya satu, Esa, Dia
lalu kenapa setiap orang dibiarkan memilih jalan yang berbeda ??
"He does have a plan" katanya
tapi apakah penghargaan yang Dia berikan sama ??
"are you read your Al-Quran ?" itu ayah saya balik bertanya
kalau begitu kita ini semut ya ?
di dalam sebuah sarang besar dengan ribuan jalur yang saling terhubung
dan masing masing semut memilih jalannya masing-masing
berputar mencari satu jalan keluar

demi massa sesungguhnya kita merugi
pada siapa kita tuju ??
demi massa sesungguhnya kita tersesat
pada apa kita tuju ??

maaf jika ini sensitif
maaf jika saya kurang beriman
hanya kadang tanya tak masuk logika
hanya kadang akal ini liar